9 Jan 2012

bad girl

I'm the worst raw foodist ever! A couple nights ago, I was really hungry and since I don't fall asleep until around 3 AM now - don't ask - I wasn't going to go to bed for several hours. What was I craving for no reason? A big, fat sandwich (I don't even GET cravings, let alone eat sandwiches, so it was truly bizarre). What'd I decide to do? Make a big, fat sandwich.

It was so comfort food-y. Delicious.
First, I toasted some organic sprouted chia bread and put on lettuce and avocado. Then I baked some butternut squash mac n' cheese leftovers, and sauteed some tofu in Bragg's, homemade breadcrumbs and nutritional yeast. Stacked it all up and cut it in half - then sat down and enjoyed.
I know! Even typing this out makes me feel indulgent. Oh man. This is the most unhealthy thing I've eaten in... forever.

 I'm comfortable with this, occasionally. I've written posts about this before: there's many reasons I'm not 100% raw. My living situation, my family, my lifestyle, and also what eating all raw means to me - because sometimes it's NOT for the best. When I eat 100% raw, I unfortunately become a little obsessive about it, to the extreme. I get too idealistic. This isn't healthy. Ultimately all I want in my diet is health. So for me, eating a percentage of cooked food is healthier mentally, than eating totally raw.

In the future I do want to become pretty much 100% raw, after I move out and buy all my own food (another reason I'm not all raw - it stresses out my family). But I need to get comfortable with myself and how I think of the diet before this happens, otherwise I'll be doing it for the wrong reasons. 

Note: If you don't care about raw food, sorry you have to read this! It probably sounds insane. If you're a raw foodist, I hope you know what I'm talking about.

At the end of the day? Loved every bite of this sandwich.


Mitra said...

Ha! Love this, so true.

Em von Euw said...

Oh my gosh THANK YOU! Sometimes I really think I'm crazy.

dacia willow said...

I'm pretty sure that given your amazing creations that you make, and your dedication to being vegan, you are allowed to give yourself treats like a healthy sandwich at midnight! I am in love your site and it has cured my day off uni sick. I've not left bed and this has kept me looking forward to when I feel better and am able to make at least ten of your dishes! I went 100% raw 2 weeks ago but had to have soup today for my little stuffy nose. I'm sure raw foodies understand these things :) thank you for all your inspirational ideas

Em von Euw said...

Oh my goodness, thank you Dacia! That just made my day. =) Please keep me updated on your journey and email me if you waaaannt!

Em von Euw said...

Get better soon! <3

dacia willow said...

Thank you :) I'm not better but I've spent that long on your site I think I'm starting to dream raw... :) I'm sure I'll be better in no time and until then, lots and lots and lots of oranges for me. Will definitely keep you updated on my progress! I just read that you are 18 btw. So wise yet so young! Good for you!! x

Em von Euw said...

Hurray! I'm happy to hear that, not the still-being-sick part though... =( Sometimes I get ideas for recipes in my dreams!

Thanks! I'm an old soul =)

rachel said...

that looks seriously amazing o_o i know what you mean about getting obsessive with eating 100% raw. i get into that state too and then i freak out if i eat something cooked. it's like not a big deal lol. just gotta remember that's it's not the end of the world and once in a while comfort food isn't gonna kill you ;D i seriously want that sandwich.

Em von Euw said...

Thanks for that, Rachel. Over the years since going vegan, transitioning to raw and then mainly raw - I've learned a lot. I'm so glad I'm at a new stage now where I feel comfortable eating cooked food without thinking I'm poisoning myself. Last night, in fact, I pigged out on curry, tofu and eggplant with my girlfriend :)


olivia may said...

Wow, I know exactly how you feel! I'm glad I'm not the only one who gets obsessive... I struggle with it, but I'm trying to learn to deal with it.
The other night, I woke up at 1AM and couldn't fall back asleep. Hungry and craving peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, I decided to try having a banana instead... But my craving didn't go away. Like you said, it was pretty odd, cause I hardly ever get such cravings... But I just decided to say **** it and embrace the fact that I have a jar of peanut butter stashed in the very back of my pantry, and indulged in fat pbj + banana + coconut sandwiches.
Resumed the next day with my usual kale smoothie and I've back on the raw bandwagon. Sometimes you just gotta give your body what it wants, and not feel bad about it.
I hope I don't sound like I'm preaching to you, just expressing my own feelings cause you've really hit home with me with this post :)

ps. Sandwich looks fantastic. YUM

Pippa said...

That looks too good! I am sooooo happy I found your blog. I've been trying to be raw for the longest and this might be the push I need.

Anonymous said...

I just dont get what is so unhealthy about this??? The bread? It is just carbs, and you have so much sugar in all the raw deserts you do. You should not feel bad for eating this. If anything it is healthy...

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