Hey, all. Hope we are doing ok today. I'm getting by. My heart will be broken for a long time, but I need to focus on moving on, being strong, learning lessons and growing as a human; without a particular person who I thought would always be by my side. I want more than ANYTHING IN THE WORLD for them to call me so we can be together again, taking care of each other in this strange universe. But they don't love me anymore, not like they used to. They have found a new life, a new lover, and don't need me like I need them. I never realized how deep my love for them was: they were my lifeline, my rock, my world, my best friend and life partner. I took that for granted. I think of them constantly: everything from dogs to farmers markets to music is a trigger. I let myself daydream that one day they will call, but it's an unhealthy habit because it's probably false hope. They really seem to be totally fine without me. That is one part of this that hurts the most. But thank GOODNESS time just keeps passing by: each day gets easier. And out of the woodwork have come all these amazing, inspiring, kind persons who want me to know they are here for me if I need to talk, need a hug, need to cry on a shoulder. For all the hundreds of comments from you, my cyber family, I thank you. You've given me heartfelt fuel to go on, have confidence in myself and remember that this pain will pass and once I am on the other end of this horrific journey I will be a better version of myself. Thank you, everyone.
Life hurts. But we heal. I'd like to pass on a quote that a couple readers have shared with me. It's from Rumi (who else) and it goes:
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
I hope you try out this recipe, it takes just a few minutes to whip up (not including the half hour or so for the yams to bake), it's super good for ya and tastes delicious. Obviously, I put tahini on it. I haven't had much of an appetite lately because of heartbreak, anxiety and depression (yippie) but today I actually felt like cooking a whole meal for myself. It's progress. It's a step in the right direction. Take care of yourself. XO
Serves one or two
1/2 cup frozen peas
1/4 cup chopped onion
1 cup spinach leaves
1 tablespoon tamari or soy sauce
1 tablespoon maple syrup
2 tablespoons apple cider vinegar or lemon juice
1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
1/8 teaspoon chipotle powder
1/4 package cubed tofu
2 tablespoons tahini
Pinch black pepper
Handful pumpkin seeds
To make prepare the veg: throw all the ingredients into a pan and sauté until everything is tender and flavourful. If the pan goes dry, just add some lemon juice, soy sauce or water. I'd suggest adding the spinach last because it only needs a moment to cook. Add whatever else you like. If it needs more salt, I ain't stoppin ya.
Plate your yam, throw on the veg and tofu mix, and finish with the toppings. Nom.
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